Category Archives: Elements

144 – Weak for lack of oxygen

I just last.fm tagged this song as “worship” and “sad songs.” Lately I’ve been really digging the broken Jesus, the radical Jesus, the hated Jesus, the weak Jesus, the weeping Jesus, the crucified Jesus, the crazy Jesus, the naked Jesus, … Continue reading

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138 – I have done the following with spinach and mushrooms (You are what you…etc.)

Grocery shopping takes practice. I enjoyed cooking and baking last year, but I never had to do it. So I’m still getting used to figuring out what’s good to have on hand, what ingredients I can turn into a lot … Continue reading

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135 – This is the first day of my life

I steal a lot of titles from songs, often songs I don’t even listen to. A week ago I spent the day with someone I hadn’t seen in eight years. (There’s a whole mix of anxieties that come with writing … Continue reading

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134 – Laughing Jesus

There was this woman on the bus today (yesterday) who was absolutely euphoric and laughing and laughing. When we stopped at a really sharp hill (which, of course, happens often in Seattle), she said, “Ohhhh Jesus!” and started laughing again, … Continue reading

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Filed under Happy, Pensive, People-Watching, Rambling, Reasons/Ways I Believe in God, Song References, Spirituality, Symbol

129 – hokay… (2 to 7 mornings)

So basically all of my finals are really this Thursday, not next week. A long weekend was either the best thing or the worst thing to precede this suckfest.

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128 – I should not listen to bands from Denver again.

At least not on days like this.

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Filed under Beautiful Things, Lists, Song References

127 – another whine (or: want)

I wish my classes didn’t rely so heavily on me typing things or me doing research on the Internet or me operating in a plainly painted computer lab. I’d rather have sit in the cool 50ish degrees swallowing that carnation … Continue reading

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Filed under Hopes and Dreams, Passion, Song References, Stream of Consciousness, Whiny

124 – i keep some good secrets

In middle school I’d wait by the big tree in front of the mobiles at the end of the day, sitting on the electrical box (which we were not supposed to do) and waiting for my ride home. Once I … Continue reading

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Filed under Allusion to Past Entries, Beautiful Things, Justice, Oranges, Stream of Consciousness

Protected: 117 – amorphous (or, maybe the metaphor is more like this)

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Filed under Ask me for a password if we're friends, Metaphor, Relationships, Whiny

115 – because you can’t just do it whenever you want to; you have to wait

I love walking to class. I love constantly smiling at people and being waved at and called out to. It is what I needed out of this new year and what makes me feel humming again. Things are a little … Continue reading

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Filed under Allusion, Beautiful Things, Happy, Relationships, Religion, Straight Documenting, Stream of Consciousness, Tijuana 2009

114 – If it’s a good thing, then do it.

I cringe at the idea of making New Year’s resolutions because it seems cliché and I should be resolving to do good things all year and maybe subconsciously because they leave a lot of room for disappointment. But in some … Continue reading

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Filed under Allusion to Past Entries, Goals (or, Rules for Myself), Lists

113 – You tempt me with my own superstitions, but I will have none of it!

I love reunions, even if they’re not face-to-face. Today I woke up healthy ten minutes before my alarm and believed anything was possible. I sat in bed awhile, and I thought about how what I had stopped writing mid-sentence last … Continue reading

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Filed under Fear, Messy, Metaphor, Relationships, Stream of Consciousness

111 – My body is never where my heart is.

2009, December 20 – 21:34 I have this yearning right now to go to a war-torn country. Yemen. Someplace forgotten. Someplace nobody really goes to volunteer or study. Someplace awful and terrifying. This might be one of those be-careful-what-you-wish-for sorts … Continue reading

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Filed under Finding and Creating Relationships and Community, Homeness, Hopes and Dreams, Identity in Suspense, Paper Journal, Parallelism, Raw, The Colorado-Washington Bridge, Tijuana 2009

108 – embouchure

I have this tendency, when I come back to Colorado, to remember that I loved playing music, even if I didn’t miss it while at school (see: last December). I think this is the first time I’ve consciously missed playing … Continue reading

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Filed under Homeness, Relationships, Stream of Consciousness, Symbol, The Fam!, This Lie They Call 'Growing Up'

101 – 101 is about continuing to greater numbers

Today I picked red, ripe cherry tomatoes from my father’s backyard garden. I don’t even like tomatoes, generally, but there’s a lot of freedom and charm in squinting my eyes to find the reddest and ripest of these supple little … Continue reading

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074 – Whatever I am

i’m just spouting. don’t take this creative. don’t take me seriously, generally speaking Whatever I am, has it been the same as it always has? I don’t know if I’m writing this because it’s almost midnight and I hadn’t really … Continue reading

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